Monday, August 13, 2012

安全感

我想他也没有做对不起我的事,但是我为什么要一直警惕。
为什么要一直担心他不在我身边的时候,是和别人在一起吗?
为什么要在意他为什么跟之前的女生会那么暧昧?对我那么冷静?
其实他对我很好。

我太累。。 安全感是怎么才会有的?有些人觉得是不停的查然后发现他很好,才有的。
我想我之前为什么会那么有安全感,现在没有呢?
我有比较爱他吗? 我想我也不知道,爱是怎么衡量?

昨晚突然有一个领悟,就是如果他被我发现偷吃的话,最坏的结局是什么?
我想。。就是分手。。
突然就轻松了。。其实我不怕没有他,因为如果他是这样的人,哪我也不要。我之前一个人也好好的。也没现在那么痛苦。
比起现在,分手对我来说,一点也不痛。

生活在怀疑和不信任是很痛苦的,我想他也不开心。觉得自己为什么要live in a microscope.

如果是因为我这些怀疑和不开心然后分手的话。。这太不值得了。

一个连结局也不害怕的女人。。。为什么要过得那么痛苦呢?

开开心心。。享受生活。。爱







Tuesday, July 10, 2012

"Nietzsche was the one who did the job for me. At a certain moment in his life,the idea came to him of what he called 'the love of your fate.' Whatever your fate is, whatever the hell happens, you say, 'This is what I need.' It may look like a wreck, but go at it as though it were an opportunity, a challenge. If you bring love to that moment—not discouragement—you will find the strength is there."

From "A Joseph Campbell Companion: Reflections on the Art of Living."

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

WHAT IF?

In 1965






and i slide, i don't want to be alone 

Monday, July 2, 2012

"Reading is everything. Reading makes me feel like I’ve accomplished something, learned something, become a better person. Reading makes me smarter. Reading gives me something to talk about later on. Reading is the unbelievably healthy way my attention deficit disorder medicates itself. Reading is escape, and the opposite of escape; it’s a way to make contact with reality after a day of making things up, and it’s a way of making contact with someone else’s imagination after a day that’s all too real. Reading is grist. Reading is bliss."
—Nora Ephron (1941-2012)

Friday, June 29, 2012

AKABA YUKI







Many times when you say i love you. 

Monday, April 16, 2012

RYO KASE






My biggest crush!! lol...if prince charming is for real..this is how he looks like...

Bonnie Strange








Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Monday, April 2, 2012

I Am Sick of Dating Artist..


I want to live my life so my aura when it leaves is very bright

SAY WAT?

i can imagine the 3rd pic...

"The guy is crippled bec she stab him"

And it goes on ,and on , and on...

What we don't see in the picture is the TRUTH


its incredible








that someone so unforgettable thinks that i am unforgettable too.

found these pics here http://weibo.com/scorpius5mi  , a pity she didn't name the artiste.

Monday, March 26, 2012

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Thank you Jesus

Thank you Jesus. 

You are my mentor and my guiding light. For without Jesus, I will not be alive today. 

How is it possible that I am able to pull through my 5 years in China? I have never worked in Singapore, how is possible I survived this industry? 

Thank you Jesus! 

I must remember The Serenity Prayer 

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Autobiography in Five Short Chapters


Chapter One
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost …. I am helpless.
It isn’t my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.
Chapter TwoI walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend that I don’t see it.
I fall in again.
I can’t believe I am in this same place.
But, it isn’t my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.
Chapter ThreeI walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in … it’s a habit … but, my eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.
Chapter FourI walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.
Chapter FiveI walk down another street.

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

“ You don’t need a plan, you need skills and a problem.”

Saturday, March 3, 2012


i want to live like that, to find beauty in everything. 

oh yeah


Sunday, February 19, 2012

Kind of a Big Deal

Today I am going to talk to my boss and my mentor about my big decision. I am worried how she is going to respond. I know now for sure that I cannot control her reaction. 
For the whole time, I keep thinking its no big deal, and this is just a small thing. But after reading this quote from Chris Guillebeau, i realize, Yes, its kind of a big deal. I have been under her protection and my comfort zone for so long. Its a big deal for me. 

"Never despise small beginnings, and don’t belittle your own accomplishments. Remember them and use them as inspiration as you go on to the next thing. When you venture outside your comfort zone, wherever the starting point may be, it’s kind of a big deal."

Kristen Hassenfeld



Paper Jewel Installations by Kristen Hassenfeld. So beautiful, i love it as its delicate and fragile, as love as nothing last forever.